these r the shits tht run thru my pwetty lil head lmao

25th April 2008; Friday.

Just imagine, if at one moment you and your loved one was cruising down a highway, and the next - you’re dead. Ever thought of how your life would end? Or, how you would feel seeing death take its toll over someone you care about in front of your very own eyes?

In my 15 and a half years of life, i have never once experienced this or as a matter of fact, even been to a funeral. I’ve heard tales bout funerals, how someone i know would attend at least 5 funerals a year - and thats not a random number. I’ve never breathe in the sorrow of the air at a cemetary or tasted the pain goin through loved ones at a ceremony, mourning over the departed. It might sound weird, but i yearn for that feeling, that pain, that sorrow. I’ve been through a lot but i cant imagine loosing someone i love forever. Like my mother, eventhough we have our fits, or my father eventhough we dont speak.

On this average day, on my way to the city, sitting by the window in an average public bus with the one i love, I saw death in front of my eyes - for the very first time. It was jammed on the road. The passangers on the bus wondered why as it was a particularly odd hour to be so packed. As we went on, we saw a group of people gathered around in between the two roads. about 20 bikes parked by the side, cars and trucks. As we passed the people, i saw a red car. Not only that, in front of that red car, was a bike. A red bike. No, not a red-coloured bike, but a blood-covered bike. And in between the bike and the car, was a man. Well, at least i thought he was. Why? Well, for that brief moment, i saw a man, with his head crushed under the front tyre of a red car. Blood was everywhere.

That got me thinking, what if, i was that man? What if, my life ended in a heartbeat? Not even able to say goodbye or get to that place i wanted to go to. In my opinion, that would be the worst way to leave everyone behind - Death within a second. I’d rather die surrounded by people i know, knowing that they were there rather than to die in a car crash surrounded by unknown human beings. But, what about that man? Would his family know that he crashed and burned? Well, maybe they would but not for hours or maybe days?

Mr. Departed probably imagined an average day in front of him. Take a ride to a shop and head home. Bet he wouldn’t have thought that he would meet his fate that afternoon. Which reminds me, he wasnt wearing a helmet. Which also explains why his head was completely crashed by that red car. So, this would be an excellent example - therefore, all you rempits, motorcyclists, and racers, for god’s sake, for all our sake, wear that damn helmet. Its your life, true. But don’t you value that life of yours that you waste by racing through the streets of a pedestrian covered city or simply rushing to get to your destination?

Be Patient On The Road, For All Our Sakes.

Don’t Drink And Drive XD

What is this? This water dripping down my face? Am i bloody crying? The little girl said to herself as she weeps in the corner of her very dark small room. She had finally took that one big step. Away from everything, away from everything she never wanted. And now, she could start anew. With a dollar in her pocket, a loaf of bread and some clothes, this little girl will begin her life.

Of course it wasnt easy. There were times where she was afraid. She never got over her fear of being in the dark, alone. She always had daddy to cry to or mummy to make her that cup of delicioius hot chocolate just the way she liked it. But not anymore, her dad no longer exsists in her life as he has found a new one. Her mother, barely there. She was tired of seeking for attention from them, so she decided to live on her own hoping that they would notice shes gone.

Weeks pass, the little girl went on with her normal routine. She had to miss school on certain days to work to live. How could they not notice, the pain she was goin through. How could they not notice now, that shes friggin gone?  But she was no ordinary girl. She believed in things. She believed in herself and she had the best of friends. They always helped her. So what if, one day, she stopped believing, and her very best friends forgot about her just as her parents did? 

And to her fears, thats excatly what happened. The boy she loved was gone. Of to another life somewhere. The best friend left for a so called happier life. And still, no news from her parents. She lived her days muching on leftovers, drinking by the pool while slowly dying inside. One day, there she was, her mother, arm-in-arm with a new man. So there she was, with her new life. And that was the very day, the little girl’s life ended

i was bored okay?

01 April 2008; Tuesday - April Fools

hello strangers, once again im here to blog after 2 months or so? Well, my last blog entry was about well…. my 10th piercing. Now, i have my 11th =D and no, its not on my ears. Where it is, u’ll have to find out yourself because i might get in trouble in school lol.

There will be pictures no worries. Though everyone seems to view blogs rather than pictures sometimes.But to go into detail about it, i was rather scared of this piercing. Loads of risk. But i did it. Didnt come cheap tho. Thank God Shaq was there. I really need someone there when it comes to piercings. Its been two days, and i’ve been living on water and bread. lol. great diet plan btw =P No regrets though as usual. More piercings to come XD

Besides that, I became a very lucky girl on the 8th of March 2008 =D

Friday, 15th February 2008.

I kinda started later on this, but oh well. i finally hav the time to blog. CNY was about a week ago.. right? ok so heres how tht went. I left for sitiawan,Perak on the eve of CNY. This is the day where everyone’s havin their reunion lunches n dinners with families. Unfortunately, i didnt make it in time for my dad’s family’s reunion lunch. I was expectin to stay at my dad’s as usual but i guess that didnt happen this time since everythin is still pretty quiet n cold btw him and i. =[ I had dinner with my mum’s side at night at this restaurant by the beach. I must say, i LOVE THE BEACH. i would totally spend an entire holiday there, if only it weren’t filled with mat rempits 0.0 On the day of CNY, i had to wake up really early to go to church with my dad -.- yes, melissalaujayne went to church. hahaha.it was 3 hours of nothingness as i totally didnt get what the pastor was sayin as usual. It was saddening really. It wasnt the same old CNY where everyone’s excited n my cousins n i wud b gambling.lol. in fact, they werent even here. So i went back to my mum’s yadayada.

So back to school. On friday, my school had this 5km anual Cross Country thing. I qualified on time hahaha. but my stamina was totally out since i havent ran in ages. I even fell while running on stone slabs on the highway. my left leg landed on a cracked slab n fell into the drain.lol. n my right knee banged on the slab. but i continued runnin while my skin was burning. After school, a couple of friends n i went to mid valley. We actually went there to watch a movie n get my friend, Miraclyn, a piercing but tht changed coz the guys werent up for it. So we just got her piercing done, n i decided to get another one done too =D Its a lil out of the ordinary, its on tht hard part of ur ear? tht small round thing.. i have no idea what u call it.lol. Mira went home, n me n the guys went to brewball n played pool. haha. well thts pretty much it.

Oh n have i mentioned tht today (151208) is my dad’s bday? i wished him thru sms as my mum was usin the phone. at least i did my part by not forgettin. Somebody did =P

1st January 2007  2008; Tuesday.

Its a whole entirely new year, and wow.. im already excited. well of course not for school. but for the parties, the fun, and the new people that are coming my way. Im pretty sure everyone had their spectacular way of counting down to new years last night. Heres how i did mine, I had a free tic to the not-so-techno rave at Mid Valley. I went there with Jon and Sean. Met up with Nick as well. lol, the night started with loads of hip hop music. it was alright, but i really wanted to hear some trance shit. And the drinks were way expensive, so we were all bloody dehydrated coz Jon and I couldnt stop banging our heads and bodies to the bass! And when the fireworks suddenly came off, we couldnt see much coz we were in btw the buildings and the bridge was blocking our view. lol. in addition to the suckiness of that, there were chinese fat businessmen dancing on the runway. LOL. so after the countdown, the techno started and boy, did jon and i whacked ourselves out. dancing away for bout an hour till we couldnt anymore, and i had to go home. hahhaha, in a way, it was a good way. Heres to a very single awesome new year! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! MAY 2008 BE A VERY ROCKING YEAR FOR YOU. PARTY TILL YOU DROP MAN!

OK, so here`s my year end summary for the year 2007.

2007, was extremely fun while it lasted. especially towards the end. i had a fantabulous holiday. I partied like ive never partied before. All throughout the year, ive had at least one special person in my life. But all in all, the only person who was really ever there for me all throughout the damn way was Jon =] so thank you jon for being there for me. and i lovelovelove youuuu! we gonna party more this year eh? haha. School was also good, eventho i had to sit for my PMR exams. But hey, tht turned out pretty damn well too eh? i guess ive got pretty good results all year round considering how much i skipped school.lol. so yes, i had fun in 2007. n i hope i have more fun in 2008! whooot!

Thursday; 27th December 2007.

Its amazing how relieved you are after knowing one of the most dreaded things of the year. wat the hell am i talkin bout? For those of u who sat for ur PMR examination this year, u know what im talkin bout eh?

Well, the feeling is like this… i didnt really feel till about yesterday night. When suddenly it hit me, FUCK. my fuckin results are out tmr. How the heck did i do?! For almost over 2 months, ive been busy partyin, working, n enjoyin my holidays. which turned out pretty perfect really. And so, i never really thought about my exams let alone remember taking em until last night.

So this morning, i got up. Took my time getting ready, and got a cab. The results -according to the papers- were to be released at 10am. I got to school at about 10.45am. And the first person i saw was Sarah, Haris, Adam and Mark. It seems that Sarah already collected her results. She wasnt too satisfied with it. Anxious, i went inside the school grounds. There i saw parents with their 15 year olds. Some overjoyed, some well, lets just say they were prettyyy daymn quiet. Where the heck are my parents u ask? Well, my mum was working, as usual. and my dad was over 400km away. God knows wat were goin thru their minds. So i excitedly collected my results. The lady at the table said congratulations and i was hopin she congratulated me for straight As. But as i looked at the certificate, it was only 6 out of 7As and a B for one of my most hated subjects -Kemahiran Hidup- which is basically home economics. Dont ask me how i can suck so badly at it as it is almost one of the most common sensed subjects. And so i was unbelievably relieved, overjoyed, happy. Eventho i didnt get straight As, i was safe, i was gonna keep on stayin here, i wasnt gonna be murdered by my mum, and be the laughin stupidity of my family. (theyre very education minded see?)

The 1st thing i did right after knowing my results, i called my mum. I told her, and she said oh thank god! At least now, i dont have to kill you! gee, thanks mum =] And then i smsed my dad. But only to receive a phone call half an hour later wishing me congratulations. I wonder, dad… u do realise my birthday was 2 weeks ago n u have yet to wish me happy birthday? Even some of the randomest people wished me happy birthday.lol. but wtv, its all good.

And so word spread around my family within minutes, and they were congratulating me as well. Thank god i did not dissapoint em. So after school, i went over to Oliver`s. There, i met kim, mark and alwin. And we all head down to Dhaven n had shisha n beer. i had to finish most of theirs -.-

After this, ima go out again to celebrate. its really all a perfect holiday. and thank god =]

9th December 2007 - Sunday. 4.30pm.

That day so happened to be the most awesome day of my entire life by far! Its Tuesday today n yet i cant seem to forget a minute of tht night. On Sunday night, i went for the My Chemical Romance concert. I never had the time to blog bout it till now.

So its 3pm on a Sunday. I got ready wearing my converse, white tank top, black pants and my studded belt. put on my eyeliner n so happened to be having a good hair day^^. Went over to Jon`s since his dad was suppose to take us to the concert at Stadium Merdeka. I walked in, n Jon was gettin ready, aaron - his bro- was ready already. He wanted to paint his nails black. so i went home n got my nailpolish n started painting everyone`s nails includin dipika`s. lol. Then, i had this whack idea of writtin lyrics or shit on our hands. i wrote i fucking luv mychemicalromance on my hand. also, bury me in black. rotfl. jon wrote shit as well. but hey, i thought we looked fckin awesome. But in the end, we left at 4.30pm n got to the stadium at around 5pm. and already there was a fuckin long queue. shit man, did these people camp out there or smth?

So we waited n waited n waited. it started drizzling.lol. They finally let us in n we ran in n got pretty good spots. Then jon n i were thinkin, hey we cant jump here… lets go further up where there r loads of space. So we did. Then after a while, we realised tht sum idiot managed to break thru the gate to get to the zone where its more expensive. So i shouted at jon n said.. JON THE GATE! LETS GO MAN!!!. So we were running n jumped off the side of the step bout 2 meters down.lol. But we cudnt get there in time coz then these RELA people closed the gate n they started catching the people who managed to get thru.lol. So we stood there at a whole diff spot. but it was all cool. we still had a pretty damn good view.

SO LETS JUST SKIP EVERYTHIN N GET TO THE MCR PERFORMANCE.

We heard rumours sayin tht Mikey Way and Frank Lero wudnt be coming. N tht fuckin sucks to the fuckin core. Coz Mikey is like …. unfckingbelivably hot. N Frank Is AMAZING on the guitar. So yeah, we were hoping tht they were there. so finally we were eager to see whether they were there. AND THEY WERE. omg omg omg i saw mikey and he looked sooooo amazing. nice hair n looks amazing with the bass! frank was also there n he did a guitar solo. and i must say it was amazing. He probably is the next Slash. But their drummer wasnt there. They replaced him with a drummer from a band called Thursday. And he was cute too! lol.

Song after song, they were alll amazing. They were awesome live. and i was headbanging like mad to all of em. And i was screaming like crazy and jumpin all over. everyone was just starin at me wonderin y the fck was i so crazy!. lol. n  it was drizzling which sorta made it all better in a way. coz then it was cooling! but unno wat pissed me off the most? was coz people like Nick, Sean n a few couple other people i know do not deserve their tics. Nick had free tics but he didnt go. which was so pissing off. Sean bought RM200 tics n he thought it was boring. WHICH WAS TOTAL BULLCRAP.so from now on, nick, i shall dislike u coz of the tics u wasted. die.

After the concert, i went home with jon n dipika n aaron n sean. n tried my first skol beer. n i kinda loved it! a hell lot better than tiger n all tht. We talked bout loadsa shit. n i finally went home at around midnight. and was amazingly exhausted.but still hyper in a way. lol.

I love you My Chemical Romance. Thank you for making me amazingly happy.

mikey, stay hot. gerard keep the hair like tht. frank u fckin rule. loveeeee you guys!

Tuesday; 20th November 2007.

You wouldn’t believe the shit i have to go through in life man. pfft!

So anyways, its 11pm on a Tuesday night. Here i am, playin guitar hero. I started a new song. Then i get a phone call on the house phone. So i paused n ran to the bedroom to pick up the call. It was my mum just checkin on me. So then i hang up, ran back to the tv n continued playin. 5 seconds later an sms came. So i paused and replied the sms. Then i continued playin, but tht person replied so i had to pause again n reply his sms. lol. So when i finally decided to just continue on playin n reply after the song, i get a phonecall. I was like "goddamnit can i not fckin play in peace?!" So i picked up the call and it was Nick. sigh.

Anyways, after the call, i continued playin. and for another meer 10 seconds, the phone rang AGAIN! and this time i was like.. wtf does he want now?! So i picked up the phone and im like, WTF MAN?! and the person was like uhh hello? so i ws like umm shit, who is this? ……

Dude: Hey, this is Visva from Denmark?

Oh btw, this guy had this indian accent and he sounded drunk which made it funnier.

Mel: Uhh, sorry, i think you got the wrong number man.

Visva: No no, this is Sandy from Malaysia eh?

Mel: umm, no this is not Sandy but i am from Malaysia. How did u get my number?

Visva: Ova the Internet. We chatting remember?

Oh and these r the exact words he and i said kay? So the weird grammar aint mine =P

Mel: Oh, okay. Well im sorry Visva, i think u got the wrong number. I dont know a guy named Visva and is from Denmark.

Visva: Wat is it ur number?

Mel: umm, the number u dialed?

Visva: Wat is it ur number??

Mel: uhh.. (reads out number)

Visva: hmm, it seems tht it is correct. (reads out the number he has) it is same see?

Mel: Oh wow, well Sandy must hav given u the wrong number i guess…

Visva: So wat is it ur name?

Mel: Uhh, im Melissa.

Visva: Merissa?

Mel: no, Melissa.

Visva: Merissa? tht is ur name?

Mel: NO! its M-E-L-I-S-S-A. Melissa

Visva: oh oh Melissa. Nice name u got.

Mel:Thanks.

Visva: Nice to meet.

Mel: uh, nice to meet you too

Visva: (starts speakin, if im not mistaken, tamil.)

Mel: uhh, sorry?

Visva: u understand tamil right?

Mel: uhh no, i dont.

Visva: But ur indian eh?

Mel: no, im chinese

Visva: But u sound very tamil Malaysian

No fckin idea where he got tht impression from, maybe SANDY speaks like tht -.-

Mel: umm well i am chinese. so yeah.  i DO NOT understand tamil.

Visva: oh very well, Namaste.

Mel: 0.o hehe okay.

Visva: So how old?

Mel: how old wat?

Visva: how old??

Mel: oh you mean how old am i??

Visva: yes, how old?

Mel: Well, uhh, how old are you?

Visva: im 26.

Mel: wow. hmm, im only 15.

Visva: Oh, you have boyfriend?

Mel: -.- not excatly, no

Visva: Im single too.

Mel: okay.

Visva: So i call u tomorro?

Mel: uhh, okay yea wtv

Visva: Alright, u listening music?

Mel: hmm yeah, uhh Visva i gtg. i hav sum stuff to do.

Visva: oh, u working?

Mel: No, im just at home but i hav sum stuff to do.

Visva: Oh ok ok.. do u go online?

Well i obviously do not wanna continue talkin to this guy. So i lied…

Mel: Oh no, i dont hav time for tht

Visva: eh, very busy eh? nevermind. i call u tmr ok?

Mel: oh ok. bye Slams phone shut.

rotfl. first thought i had in mind was : wat the hell? how on earth? So i called bryan and i was like.. uhh sum indian dude from Denmark called me randomly and wants to keep callin me n shit. He’s like just tell him to fuck off when he calls or dont pick up. Tell him you dont want to talk to him. I said ok, i’ll let u hav ur fun. bye.

So then i called Nick. and i was like, by any chance did u hav to b a complete idiot to give my number to some guy from Denmark named Visva? and hes like… uhh no. why did u think it was me? I said, i dunno.. u know people all over the world so i just guessed. So i told nick the entire conversation n i was like.. Why cudnt it b some guy who sounded totally hot who speaks well and who is around my age n doesnt go by the name Visva?! Some Denmark dude who so happens to b single and well nice! Tough luck man.

Oh and ur gonna love this! Wednesday; 21st November 2007:

While im writtin this, its 8:12pm. And so far, i’ve gotten 3 calls from a number: Unknown. Yesterday, when Visva called, the caller ID said Unknown. So im pretty much guessing its the same number, same call from Visva. So yeah, he really was gonna call on another day. sigh. I didnt pick up tho. i DO NOT want to. If this is sum practical joke, this is so not funny. Well actually it is, its hillarious.

Tuesday, 9th Nov 07 :

woke up coz of a phonecall. It was jil. Was wonderin y the heck was she callin me this early. mayb the trip was canceled?  *mel grabs the phone n answers*

Mel: WTF?!

Jil: Oi women. the bus is comin at 10.

Mel: I thought u said it was at 11. wtf is the time?

Jil: uhh, 9

Mel: WHY DID U ONLY TELL ME BOUT THIS NOW. I HAV A FUCKIN HOUR TO GET READY N GET TO KL SENTRAL?!

Jil: uhh, i only got the call 5 mins ago from Sarah.

Mel: uhh wtv. see u there then.

*toot**toot*toot*

So i got up, got ready. But i realised i had no cash. I left a note for mum to spare me some cash but she didnt. GAY! So all i had was RM20. I begged my bro for cash but he only had RM26. i took it anyways n promised i wud pay back. So i ran out.. got a RM1 bus ride to sentral. savin cash eh? eheheh

Its 5 to 10. I was thinkin i was late so i ran to the Genting shuttle bus thingy. no one was there. Oliver n Alwin arrived 2 seconds after i did n we ended up waitin there for a long time till more people arrived. We ended up boardin the bus at bout 10.30. Still half asleep, i try to go to sleep. But i cant since jil was next to me n u know we`re chaos together eh?

We arrived at the skyway cable car thingy after an hour n half or so. Had to wait for the second bus. We finally got on the cable car up to Genting Highlands. We found out tht oliver was afraid of heights!! lol. Finally got to Genting n we had to walk alllllll the way to the place we were stayin. Tht was about a half hour walk.Not to forget our luggage. Well, mine was just one of those oversized handbags.lol. Jil, Sarah n Mira had trolley bags so they were suffering. i actually tripped over Sarah`s bag tho -.-

So we got to the place. Its called Ria Apartments. n from the outside, it looked like those apartments u see from the movie The Haunted Apartments. No kiddin. So we got up to ours. Me, Jil,Sarah,Mira had to share an apartment with 3 other malay girls. Anyways, we unpacked n went off to the theme park. Again, we had to walk all the way up the hill to get there. We sat on this spinning thingy which was soooo awesome! lol. Then we started lining up for the cyclone roller coaster. We were bout 10 people away, when it started drizzling. So tht retard incharge of the ride closed it. So we continued waitin in line hopin tht rain wud stop. And it did. But tht retard still didnt wanna open up the ride. Grr! So we gave up n got out. Decided to go up to the solero shot. LET ME TELL YOU THIS: FUCKIN AWESOME ADRENALINE RUSH MAN!!!! we actually went on it twice. well oliver didnt, coz he was too chicken shit to XP We were screaming like hell! hahha. it was incredible. Our asses actually got off the seat when they dropped us!. But on the second time on the ride, my ass flew up until i actually hit the top of my seat where the guard was. holy fuck man!

We were already kinda tired but then  we went indoor coz it started rainin really badly. We did some rides but went to play pool as well! and hey guess i didnt know i cud actually play like tht. haha. anyone up for a game? =P  Then at around 8pm we had to go to snow world n we fuckin freezed our asses off. it was minus 5 degrees n was bloody cold! our faces were numb. our toes were paralyzed! haha. but we had loads of fun in there. Finally got out and i was jsut shakin n trembling.  And i was too tired to follow the girls around the mall n go on more rides so i followed Olie, Alwin n this guy named Seko? i think. lol. to the pool place n played more pool.haha. Met up with the others at 11 n started walkin back. I was desperate for some beer. and thank the fuckin lord tht the mini mart at the apartment sold beer at a decent price!!! so we bought 2 cans each. me, olie n jil!. haha. Went up to the apartment n started drinkin. The guys came over n started drinkin even more n fagged as well. Jil got drunk. i was high. olie was just red faced. Seko was high. Alwin was all innocent. Mira had a few sips. Sarah was asleep.lol. we were playin around until we finally fell asleep at 5.30am. lmao. i woke up all the sudden at around 7am. prolly coz olie`s legs were on me n i felt uncomfortable sleepin in tht position for so long. Everyone was still asleep. Then the doorbell rang at 7.30 n it was faiz. He needed keys n he seemed wide awake.Me, in my shorts n Alwin`s sweater with my messy hair was just completly blur. lol.

Everyone woke up n was still damn sleepy n tired. Went down for a decent bfast n met up with Mark at the theme park again. had another round at the theme park n went in again for another round in snow world. This time, we came well prepared.lmao. But Jil n Mira had to b asses n shove like 5 handfulls of snow into my face so i ended up wrestling with Jil n it was wild. We finally had to go home. All pretty damn tired. Slept on the way back on the bus. But mira kept buggin for food n Sarah`s mp3. lol.

Mum picked me up from bangsar n had to go to Mid Valley. Already so tired -.-. Then went to my aunt`s to pick my bro up. I fell asleep on the couch there. Nick called me n i promised to call back when i got home. Fell right asleep again. Next thing i knew, i had to go home. So i did. Slept in the car thruout the way. Got home n just crashed on the bed n fell asleep. lol. When i opened my eyes, it was 9am and i was still in my jeans n tank top from last night. rotfl!

I am beyond fucking happy. wats the date today,  -29th Oct 2007

I woke up this morning, n i knew i was gonna hav a good day, but not THIS good. I had an amazing sleep.. i just didnt wanna get out of bed! but hey, it was almost noon so i pushed myself of my pillow n forced myself to the bathroom.

Anyways, i was online the entire morning -kinda forgot wat i did- and i was also havin a good hair day. hmmm. lol. So i went out for a while n had loads of fun at a friend`s place. got back at like.. 9pm. haha. Went to phase 2 cafe to hav dinner. Suppose to meet jon too. He said he had a package for me from Nick. Earlier, Nick told me sum dude gave him a package tellin him to pass it to me. So i was just like.. oh okay.. sum gift, probably like a flower or sum shit. But when jon came to table my eyes went like this 0.0

First of all! it was coz the package was FUCKIN HUGE! i was wonderin wtf cud they guy hav got me tht was sooooo big! Then secondly, i saw the bag it was in n it was from mph. So what i thought was hmmm.. okay the dude whom i thought got me the gift was a complete dumbass. So mayb he got me a dictionary but then.. hey he needs it more than i do coz well half of the things i say to him, he doesnt understand. But WHY THE FUCK WUD SOMEONE GET ME A FUCKIN DICTIONARY. HOW FUCKING UNROMANTIC!. rotfl

Lol. So anyways, jon was like.. Mel this thing isnt excatly the lightest fuckin thing on earth so just open it up n see wat it is. And he said he cried when he heard wat Nick told him bout this package. so im like… uhh okay.. i thought it was from tht dumbass? So jon takes out this card n i read it. The first line was like.. `okay, so i lied. the gift is from me` and from tht handwritting i instantly recognised it as Nicks. so i was like.. THT IDIOT! So i kept reading on, n it said `  I had to get this for you b4 any of u mum`s bfs did coz i got this for a real bargain bla bla bla…` So instantly, i SCREAMED!!! i started jumpin in my seat n i kept goin OMGOMGOMGOMGOMFUCKINGGOD! So jon was like.. unno wat it is dont u? So i said yeah I CANT BELIEVE THT IDIOT GOT ME FUCKIN IPOD SPEAKERS.

for those of u who r blur… for a couple of weeks now, ive been obsessing over ipod speakers. My mum`s bf was suppose to get em for me b4 he left for home but they were in a rush so it didnt happen. so i guess i was pretty down since ipod speakers costed a BOMB here n i wud never get it from my mum! So this guy! who happens to b my ex-bf.. whom ive hurt and im totally sorry for tht.. but HE FUCKIN GOT ME IPOD SPEAKERS. and they weren`t tht tiny lil donut speaker. omg.. this thing is like.. it has loads of shit in it and its just AMAZING. THE SOUND IS SOOOOO AMAZING.

So i called nick n i was like.. U DUMBASS U NEED THE CASH FOR COLLEGE N ALL THT. FUCK U! UR NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THIS FOR ME. I DUN FUCKIN DESERVE THIS. and he was like.. well if u dun want it i cud just give it to another friend. n then, i just shut up.

So nick, I am soooooo thankfull! thank u so fuckin much. Coz ive never been this happy EVER. u caught me off guard. i wud never expect a fuckin ipod speaker from anyone. Thank u thank u thank u. I am happy. U hav made my life amazing.All i need right now, is vodka.. a friend to hang out with and this speaker with my ipod. And life wud b complete. THANK YOU SO MUCH, I LOVE YOU NICK! ur vempyre always ^^