these r the shits tht run thru my pwetty lil head lmao

Well, i suddenly got thinkin bout how people cut themself up because theyre depressed or just angry and mad. YES, i  suppose i am an emo. but i sure as hell dont believe in cuttin myself up over crap. everyone is bound to go thru shit in life. There are many ways to deal with it but one of it is not to cut urself. It might give u self satisfactory because cuttin may help release the pain. I have known a few people who have done these things. and i look at them and its just, painful. Theyre like this because of somebody else. so why, hurt urself even more by cuttin urself instead of forgettin bout tht person and move on. or even try fixing it up. Somewhere around last year, i had to go thru some pretty rough probs with some people. and YES, at one point i felt like giving it all up n just die or start a new life in a new place. But then i thought, if i give this all up now, the memory wud still remain, right at the back of my head. So why bother? Well, maybe until today, some of those probs still lasts, but at least im happy with what i have now. I have my pillar of support. The best way to deal with pain is to have great friends. and not those asses that just use you to gain popularity or just to use you till u find someone better. Cutting maybe a way of showin ur personality as maybe a goth or an emo. TRUE. but i think its a stupid thing to do. If u wanna watch urself bleed, why dont just kill urself n be done with it? instead of watchin those scars fade thru years and leave remains of ur past?

ahh well, the year 07 is here. well its been bout 3 weeks since it started n so far there has been some up n downs. well lifes never perfect. anyways, on the first day of school itself,us new form 3 students had streamin. i guess im the only one besides sarah who had to split from our usual group of friends. im officially a jujurian. pfft! Life in this class is totally diff from what i had last year. people here concentrate really hard on their studies. n im like blur n sleepy half of the time. well as for my other frens, theyre back in the same class but we still talk daily so its cool. Other than that, i`ll b goin for the muse concert next month with my babe =) which is great coz im dyin to see em. I guess since dec 06 till now has been wonderful. it of course has been an emotional roller coaster but having sean along the ride has made it all better. Then of course jon n jil n claire whos there for me when i need em n the endless fun i hav with em cheers me up. I just hope there wud b no more drama this year. dont we all need a smooth sailing year? i mean cammon, its PMR year dammit!! hahaha.. so yea. wish the best of luck for 07`! till later, xx.