these r the shits tht run thru my pwetty lil head lmao

25th April 2008; Friday.

Just imagine, if at one moment you and your loved one was cruising down a highway, and the next - you’re dead. Ever thought of how your life would end? Or, how you would feel seeing death take its toll over someone you care about in front of your very own eyes?

In my 15 and a half years of life, i have never once experienced this or as a matter of fact, even been to a funeral. I’ve heard tales bout funerals, how someone i know would attend at least 5 funerals a year - and thats not a random number. I’ve never breathe in the sorrow of the air at a cemetary or tasted the pain goin through loved ones at a ceremony, mourning over the departed. It might sound weird, but i yearn for that feeling, that pain, that sorrow. I’ve been through a lot but i cant imagine loosing someone i love forever. Like my mother, eventhough we have our fits, or my father eventhough we dont speak.

On this average day, on my way to the city, sitting by the window in an average public bus with the one i love, I saw death in front of my eyes - for the very first time. It was jammed on the road. The passangers on the bus wondered why as it was a particularly odd hour to be so packed. As we went on, we saw a group of people gathered around in between the two roads. about 20 bikes parked by the side, cars and trucks. As we passed the people, i saw a red car. Not only that, in front of that red car, was a bike. A red bike. No, not a red-coloured bike, but a blood-covered bike. And in between the bike and the car, was a man. Well, at least i thought he was. Why? Well, for that brief moment, i saw a man, with his head crushed under the front tyre of a red car. Blood was everywhere.

That got me thinking, what if, i was that man? What if, my life ended in a heartbeat? Not even able to say goodbye or get to that place i wanted to go to. In my opinion, that would be the worst way to leave everyone behind - Death within a second. I’d rather die surrounded by people i know, knowing that they were there rather than to die in a car crash surrounded by unknown human beings. But, what about that man? Would his family know that he crashed and burned? Well, maybe they would but not for hours or maybe days?

Mr. Departed probably imagined an average day in front of him. Take a ride to a shop and head home. Bet he wouldn’t have thought that he would meet his fate that afternoon. Which reminds me, he wasnt wearing a helmet. Which also explains why his head was completely crashed by that red car. So, this would be an excellent example - therefore, all you rempits, motorcyclists, and racers, for god’s sake, for all our sake, wear that damn helmet. Its your life, true. But don’t you value that life of yours that you waste by racing through the streets of a pedestrian covered city or simply rushing to get to your destination?

Be Patient On The Road, For All Our Sakes.

Don’t Drink And Drive XD

What is this? This water dripping down my face? Am i bloody crying? The little girl said to herself as she weeps in the corner of her very dark small room. She had finally took that one big step. Away from everything, away from everything she never wanted. And now, she could start anew. With a dollar in her pocket, a loaf of bread and some clothes, this little girl will begin her life.

Of course it wasnt easy. There were times where she was afraid. She never got over her fear of being in the dark, alone. She always had daddy to cry to or mummy to make her that cup of delicioius hot chocolate just the way she liked it. But not anymore, her dad no longer exsists in her life as he has found a new one. Her mother, barely there. She was tired of seeking for attention from them, so she decided to live on her own hoping that they would notice shes gone.

Weeks pass, the little girl went on with her normal routine. She had to miss school on certain days to work to live. How could they not notice, the pain she was goin through. How could they not notice now, that shes friggin gone?  But she was no ordinary girl. She believed in things. She believed in herself and she had the best of friends. They always helped her. So what if, one day, she stopped believing, and her very best friends forgot about her just as her parents did? 

And to her fears, thats excatly what happened. The boy she loved was gone. Of to another life somewhere. The best friend left for a so called happier life. And still, no news from her parents. She lived her days muching on leftovers, drinking by the pool while slowly dying inside. One day, there she was, her mother, arm-in-arm with a new man. So there she was, with her new life. And that was the very day, the little girl’s life ended

i was bored okay?

01 April 2008; Tuesday - April Fools

hello strangers, once again im here to blog after 2 months or so? Well, my last blog entry was about well…. my 10th piercing. Now, i have my 11th =D and no, its not on my ears. Where it is, u’ll have to find out yourself because i might get in trouble in school lol.

There will be pictures no worries. Though everyone seems to view blogs rather than pictures sometimes.But to go into detail about it, i was rather scared of this piercing. Loads of risk. But i did it. Didnt come cheap tho. Thank God Shaq was there. I really need someone there when it comes to piercings. Its been two days, and i’ve been living on water and bread. lol. great diet plan btw =P No regrets though as usual. More piercings to come XD

Besides that, I became a very lucky girl on the 8th of March 2008 =D